I am still here.

Well, it has been quite awhile since I have posted. I can't really blame school, since for the most part it has been quite "unbusy" lately (that would be my own word I made up). I guess I really have not been in the mood.

Things are a bit strange right now. I have come to the realization that I am actually going to be graduating in approximately 163 days. I have so many thoughts and emotions running through my head right now..........

The first holiday season (holidays= thanksgiving, advent, Christmas, new years) that Austin is gone. He will actually be here for a week at Christmas, but he has been gone for almost 6 months. It is very hard for me- and it is getting harder as we get nearer to Christmas.

I miss my boy.

Paige is 4 months away from turning 13. She is changing into a young woman and sometimes I feel that I am losing her too.

I miss my little girl.

I am full of excitement, saddness, joy, and uncertainty. All of these lead me to be emotional and distracted.

So, that, my friends, is what is going on right now in my life, my head, and my heart.